Its 1 am and there is a train going by will some one please stop that loud whistle its going to wake up the baby. Then I will be up all night with her… and a diaper change wont do and a bottle wont do. its just going to take a lot of cuddling to get her to calm down. Its so hard being a single mother living in a one bed room apartment trying to raise her all alone working full time living pay check to pay check but it never used to be this way… oh it never used to be this way for he walked out after four months saying he dint want to be a father at a young age he said he wanted nothing to do with her. And no ones heard from him since that day some say he moved to France others say he just needs time to figure out his life…but its been six long months and I don’t think he is coming back but that’s ok because I was in the coffee shop yesterday and some guy gave me his number and now we have a date set for Friday and I think he is the one for me. His smile just makes my heart skip a beat. He says he loves kids and wants to meet my daughter.. I think he might be the right one for me. But I’m not going to rush it no I’m not going to rush it I’m just going to see how it plans out… he loves kids and he is a teacher in Alabama .his smile makes my heart skip a beat. Baby cant you see your the only one for me.