I Let Him spend The night, and altough we’d only known each other a few days,
everything felt so right! I would wake up estatic, go through out my days estatic,
and in the evenings I’d travel to heaven in his arms. I never wanted to return to
earth, wishing he and I could sleep on the pillowy clouds forever.

I was in love, and everyone could tell that I had finally been swept off my feet.
Landon and I spent, spent every night together for 2 whole weeks and I just knew
in My heart, that I would die with Him.We played board games, along with My
eighteen year old son, who often times accompanied us to the movies or bowling.

He and Landon  got along just fine, and My oldest son had alot of respect for him
too.My daughter never got the chance to meet him though, as she had moved out
of state the year before. But anyway, My life was blissfull and I couldn’t figure
out how I had ever survived so long without Landon in my life before.

Then one night he came over and had the strangest look on his face, I asked whats
wrong babe? He said nothing, I’m just feeling sorry for Myself. Why? I asked.
everything is wonderful, you and I are in love and life is beautiful Landon I explained.
Then He said, If I tell you a secret will you promise to still love me? I said, Oh Landon
nothing in this life can make me stop loving You.

Then He became very quiet, so I began to start guessing, figuring 3 guesses was
My limit. Are You Gay? Of course not! He answered. Do You Have Aids? no, He
answered, well then are You Married I asked? and then I saw the tears begin to form
in his eyes. I think at that moment, I would’ve prefered he’d been gay. Because I
was so stunned, and after a few minutes I regained My composer and said it’s alright
Landon I can deal with this because I do love You and will stand by You no matter
what.

He gasped then and said you really do love me don’t you? So He explained they had
been seperated when He met me, and at that time He had no intentions of becoming
involved with anyone, let alone falling in love. He told Me they had a small baby, and
because of him, he wanted to give his marriage another try. But that meant he had
to let me go, because he didn’t want to hurt Me. Too late, I was hooked, hook line
and sinker as they say.

I chose My words carefully then, saying Landon I will be right here waiting until
You decide what it is You really want. But as I saw the tears flow down his beautiful
face, I should’ve known right then and there, that I would never see him again.