Love is a strange thing isnt it? True love is unconditional and selfless. I think many people have been so wrapped up that they have put that first and maybe prioritised according to how the heart felt and not how the head knew things should really be.

Mine is a constant battle between the head and the heart, the heart eventually overcoming the head in every battle that gets thrown my way. My question being though who will win the final war because logically you there must be one, a be all and end all that will determine which direction the rest of my life will go.

I have called him, I have text him, my heart tells me he loves me my head tells me he doesnt and never will enough to forgive and forget. My head tells me to move on, while my heart holds onto his ankles pleading with him to give us another chance, my heart begs and pleads for him to be mine for always, logic proveils we can never be because he is as much an emotional train wreck as i am needy (and that means he has problems).

I am so needy it annoys me, I like to make out I am doing things for others and I get alot of praise for it however analysing myself it is probably more the need for me being with people I am so perfectly incapable of being alone and happy, its a miserable existance for me not having someone to care for, someone who comes home and i can cook for them, iron their clothes and just be a perfect little 1950’s housewife i know i was always meant to be lol.

I want and need someone to sweep me up and take charge of my life and everything in it. I am (and this is proven) not complete and certainly nowhere near close to happy without him controlling me, and not in a bad way, we were meant to be the weaker sex but you know what we were not meant to be the equal or vmore powerful sex no more than we were meant to be lumberjacks, it just doesnt work we are not built for it, we are not meant to be that way.

In saying that I also firmly believe that emn shouldnt sit at home all day doing nothing no more than they were meant to be househubands…again it doesnt work it makes them feel inadequate its a perfectly ridiculous idea to role reverse and expect your marriage to last, that is whats wrong with the world today that is why there is so much divorce. For these reasons I believe Men should be at work, women should have a little part time job if they want too and run the house,tehn perhaps this nightmareish lazy country would sort itself out if we all just went back to where we belong then we can be families again, rather than broken homes.

(I realise alot of you wont agree with this, this is my own opinion and I do not mean to offend anyone)