The next week came about and thankfully it became the longest week I had ever experienced. I went to sleep early and woke up earlier each day. Eventually, my days began to blend together – it did show that nothing of overbearing importance or loathing was appearing. My only grip to reality was what happened when the beginning of the weekend began. My mind became more like journal entries being reread – for the facts, of course.

Monday – ‘Had minor conversation with people today. Didn’t equate to anything. They mentioned everyone getting together like I asked them about, oh, a week and a half ago by this point. I said ‘maybe.’ Felt as though I dodge the bullet. Won’t be able to do that for too much longer.’

Tuesday – ‘Another mentioning of what was my original plan. I was left no option but to agree and tell them “Yes. This weekend.” I have several more days to be sure I don’t screw anything else up.’

Wednesday – ‘Déjà vu has stricken at me. I ran into ——– and once again noticed his pocket knife being twiddled with in his pocket. He was angry. I guess this is how things were supposed to go. How unfortunate. I don’t want to see them hurt each other nor themselves.’

Thursday- ‘Feeling sick. Didn’t see anyone today. Hope nothing has risen up from my absence.’

The remaining days became blurry. I felt better, and I felt ready for the incoming days. I wasn’t ready for him again though.

“Hi again. Nice to see you again.”
His voice almost made me jump.
“H-hi.” I stuttered back out to him.
“How’ve you been?”

It was Jack – the real one. I had no idea what to say to him. I felt as though I could just make him look like a fool, but it wasn’t worth it.

“Better, but alive.” He looked stunned by that. Was he expecting something else?
“I see. Well, I actually am glad to be seeing you again…”

He went on and on asking again and again if things were okay with this person and that person. He was especially interested in me and how I was.

“I herd things were going badly for you back at home. You okay”
“Yes.”

I had little to immediately say to him. More to the point, I had little time to deal with him at the moment. I didn’t wish to deal with him any longer. He and his message was just as useless as everyone else’s at that time. I told him this is the most passive manner possible.