A dozen red roses and your memory

I remember well the day you gave me the red roses,

you told me they were as beautiful as I was to you.

They came with a gold engagement ring you said,

will you have the honor of becoming my wedded wife?

I said yes and accepted your ring as a token of love,

the roses lay forgotten as we kissed and made love.

The future looked rosy and full of open doors for us,

how was I to know that it would shut just a year later?

So I have the last dozen roses you bought for me,

they will make great potpourri when I am done here.

But its time to count down why we are not together,

I pick up a beautiful rose and tearfully start from here .

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The distance between us was a killer and we knew it,

but circumstances made it impossible to relocate then.

As the rose peddles of one rose falls to the waiting floor,

I still feel the decision I made was the right one back then.

****

I pick up two roses this time and crumble them to the floor to,

one is for the marriage that will never take place for me or you.

The other is for the lose of the child we will never have now,

Paige would have been beautiful and the pride of our lives.

****

The next one is a biggie so I pick up two more roses as well,

each rose represented the love that me and you really had.

It wasn’t that our love was flawed or anything wrong with it,

it was the circumstances surrounding it that was the culprit.

****

Two more are picked up and shredded with a perfect ease,

showing the trust we had was shattered by our harsh actions.

There really wasn’t a valid reason to be that mean to the other,

but its hard when you want to be a master and me be the puppet.

****

Three are picked up and ripped with an anger as well as love,

for you were my fist true love and will never forget who you are.

But I knew I could never hold a wandering soul as strong as yours,

players don’t make a very good husband in the end I did realized.

You wanted someone that would listen to your ever single command,

as much as I loved you it just wasn’t in me to listen to anyone like that.

I couldn’t let you be the center of my world like you said it would be,

I have a huge family and grandchildren that needed me just as well.

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Two more roses are picked up and slowly shredded as I cry a little,

for these roses symbolize the closing of the door between you and I.

We could try to stay friend but in the  end that to will slowly crumble,

we always said we don’t want to be friends if we could not be lovers.

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The last rose I will keep until it to dies on its own and join the potpourri,

it will symbolize my need to start over and get on with life without you.

Rumor has it that you will be getting married soon and I wish you luck,

but this time I am really glad you are marrying her soon instead of me.