A Kiss

Sometimes I feel
your kisses are forced.
Those are the ones
you can keep to yourself
Sometimes i feel
your hugs are half-assed.
if so, don’t bother!
I’d hate for you to waste all of that
precious energy
on undeserving little ole me.
And sometimes I feel
you talk at me instead of to me.
If I am not interesting enough
then tell me!
I love you so much that
I can change!
I can change.
Or are these promises that I have made
and not kept?
Sometimes I feel your kisses
and i am in heaven!
When you mean it,
you take my breath away!
Even after all this time…
Sometimes I feel you feel
how I feel for you!
I wish you would just feel happiness
with or without me.
Yes,
I love you that much!
I would throw my heart away
into the deepest abyss
of the deepest ocean
if only I could see you smile
and know you are happy…
again.

Willi