I have often thought of what I would do if I finally got the chance to start life again. 

Now I have my chance to find out.  The end of 2009 gave me many setbacks, many finishes of parts of my life.  Now though, I look back at those, and do not dwell on what was closed, but try to look ahead to what has been opened.

My life had crumbled down around my feet, but someties that is what needs to happen in order for you to rebuild.  I’ve looked at what I was for the past ten years, and have found a person I find lacking.  The person I have been is not some one I want to be. 

I have found though, that not all of what I was is bad.  In that time, I have discovered I am a good father, which is one of the few high points of my last decade.

It is time though for me to take that which was good in that time, and keep it as I rebuild the person I want to be. 

I do not know all that lies before me, but I shall take what is given, and try to bring back some one that I can look at with in myself… and see with respect.