All That I Am

ShadowPsychos on Nov 4, 2010

Tags: blame, burdens, contrast, fears, Hope, lost, pain, past, Poetry, scars, self-pity, Stars, voices

I just wanted to say quickly to all the people on fb that may be worried about me (after what I said and then disappearing) that i’m ok, I just..i have had to let some alters take over and well I may not be around for a little bit.

I can’t stop the pain pouring out through my tears

I can’t delay the hope fading out from all my fears

All the life that I have wasted

All the bitterness that I have tasted

Over all these flightless years

I try to lay blame at all the drunken bars

Trying to find a way to conquer all my scars

All my heavy burdens and troubles

Seen through self- pitying eyes, sinking doubles

I just missed all my chances at reaching for the stars

All I do is scream through each and every night

Failing at redeeming all the things I should have held so tight

My feet constantly pacing

I’m buried in thoughts that are forever racing

Lost in the mess I have created, shadowed from the light

I am stuck here with lips from which I do not speak

From all my veins, the voices continue to leak

Which way should I go?

Now I have lost all that I once did know

Trapped with bent will of all the people who made me weak

I need to embrace the true contrast

And drop this need to always resurface the past

Stop giving in to the anger and the tempting need to fight

loosen up this noose around my neck I hold so tight

All that I am, can I make it last?

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Christine Ramsay on Nov 4, 2010
You write so expressively. I can almost feel the pain. Take care of yourself.

Christine
Bruce Officer on Nov 4, 2010
Evocative. Good work. And I hope writing this out helps.
Lord Banks on Nov 4, 2010
Glad your ok M great deep poem as usual well done. David.
Tom Woodside on Nov 4, 2010
Thank you for sharing, I was worrying about you! I hope you get to where you are trying to get to. I know it is very hard sometimes; I\’m sorry you have to deal w/ that crap. I don\’t even completely understand what you are going through and I have been through a lot in my life. And as always your poetry is awesome. Take care and drop me a line sometime
J M Lennox on Nov 4, 2010
It is good to express yourself through poetry. Be kind to yourself.
TommyP on Nov 4, 2010
MqD you amaze me, with your talent and your strength!! Loved this line “…Seen through self- pitying eyes, sinking doubles…”
jimbob1 on Nov 4, 2010
SP…this is an incredibly powerful poem that you have put together here…I like this one a lot…in response to your closing question…do whatever it takes to make it last…thanks and take care
pattiann on Nov 4, 2010
I am sorry you are in so much pain. I will send good thoughts your way.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on Nov 4, 2010
I know you can do it. I have faith in you and your ability to overcome your obstacles.

My heart goes out to you and your circumstance. Please be well.
LoveDoctor on Nov 4, 2010
It’s never too late to start over. You’ve got talent and brains so keep on fighting and don’t give up.
giftarist on Nov 4, 2010
Very well expressed. I love how you deliver the lines. Take care always, friend.
P Flaherty on Nov 4, 2010
you are sooo much more than you think you are.. you have so much talent, and more important,,,,,,,, so much time…

I really found this to be one of your more heartfelt pieces!

Always, P<3

\\\\\\\"still here too\\\\\\\"… dont forget

xoxoxo
Kaye TM on Nov 4, 2010
very well written. =p
batdancer on Nov 6, 2010
great poem
LadyGanja on Nov 14, 2010
I feel you.
thanks for exposing this.
Kitty Starwizard on Feb 13, 2011
You have most over all talent I have seen in a long time~kitty

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