I’ve had oh so many sleepless nights
Because my paranoia’s strong
Wondering when it all will end
After suffering so long.
I think of all the many times
My dad and I have fought
I’m tormented by these thoughts of hate
And the pain the hate has brought.
So many times I’ve fought the urge
To grab that sharpened knife
Just so I could finally breathe
That perfect breath of life.
All my life these people talked
To me like I was dumb
Till the pain became too much to bear
And I turned completely numb.
That’s why I have severe paranoia
I always have to fight
But I believe that by the grace of God
That I will be alright.