I reach out, 

I feel the pain…  

My life, ever and ever again………      Silent I try to be….   My nightmares, 

totally fucked up…….

I cry really loud, not caring my life to waste,

I cry really loud, 

I never fake…  

Again and again, 

my heart does not heal….

Again and again, 

I wish not to feel..   

the pain as it has been, 

over and over again,…….

The pain that makes me cry, sorrowful words, from my eyes…… 

Ill do it all over again, 

fuck you all, 

you are not my friends………

Take off the crosses, and start anew,

for my life……

only a few, here and there, God help me share,,,,,,,,,

He does does not help the pain,

the people in my life,,,,  they can abstain…. from the pain, that I hold….

They disappear, 

their hands, they fold….

so who am I, again and again,????  

Feeling so worthless, feeling astrainged??????

BS…….   totally bullshit……..

So I hang around,

If only for them,

so I hang around,

because it is right,,,,,,,

So I hang around,

in my awful plight..

Seems it a “beginning to an end”?

It will all turn out right my friend…………

Someway, someday, 

I will move mountains……..