The pain inside me is killing me
I can’t say what it is
that causes it
But there is a reason
there always is

The pain hurts so much
I can’t bear it
I’m slowly dying from it
there has to be a way out
I haven’t found it 
I haven’t looked
It hurts to much to move,
to think

No one can help
I have to do it myself
But I don’t know how
I don’t know if 
I will ever know

I try to find the reason
I fail
I don’t get it
I try agian
I get closer
Not quite there
I get it
I have it 

I lose it
I fail
There is more pain
I was so close
I failed
It gets worse
I had it
I’ll never make it

I’ll just let the pain thrive
Let it become worse
I’ll let it spread throughout me
It hurts so bad
It gets so bad
I just want to give up
On life
But what would that solve?