Breathing is so hard with this weight on my chest.
When all that I can do is give it my best—
I can’t help feeling I’m spread too thin—
Inside I’m reeling, while losing my win.

There’s no where left to hide it—
I can’t run any more—
I just wish I could go back,
Back to before.

How am I doing, you wondered today—
And I thought for a second you’d heard me say:
“I’m breaking to pieces,
I’m losing my ground—
I’m thinking of leaving
When no one’s around.”
But then I realized I’d been lost in my thought,
And you hadn’t noticed—
The way my heart has dropped.

There’s no way to hide it—
I can’t run any more,
I just wish I could go back
Back to before.

Breathless and jaded,
Somewhat sun faded—
Searching for words,
And finding none,
Looking for exits,
Through smothering blankets,
Of thoughts from which,
I could not run.
I find myself feeling,
Obvious and reeling
Emotion riddled
Exhausted…
Undone.

There’s no where to hide it—
No use to fight…
No where to run to—
Not any more.
I wish I could go back
Back to before.