Battling the Contradictions
My heart is so tired of the fighting
Between the angels and demons inside
Sometimes I think that one is winning
Then the fighting continues
I cry in the middle of the night
For things I feel are not right
For Death to come, but when it does
I run and hide away
I do not know why I do these things
In my effort to hurt and help myself
I steel myself for what may come
However, I have abandoned all hope
Why love when all it does is break
Like a mirror it can shatter
With the shards I cut at faith
And smile as I watch myself bleed.
My heart is so tired of the fighting
Between the angels and demons inside
I live in constant contradiction
And there is nowhere for me to hide