Living a double life is not unheard of,
it”s considered quite normal.
By day we’re one way, But by night you wouldnt believe what u saw.
Wearing a mask in front of others, then taking it off behind closed doors.
Where the shades are down and the lights are dimmed.
We’re free to be whoever we truly are, we would be surprisingly unnoticeable to our friends.
Our friends we say they are.
So why a double life we live?
Why are our addictions, fantasies, strange tendancies and abnormalities hid?
Things we forbid to let escape our lips but yet feed our desiring hearts with.
Society will have you believing you should only live the American dream, tell you stories and preach to you the joy it brings.
More like the troubles it brings you.
Day by day your living a lie.
Everyday your leaving a life behind closed doors.
The closest person in your life has no idea of what your going through.
Your constantly dueling it out with yourself, with your heart, with your mind.
Your lips tell dark lies that the truth in your eyes want to bring to life.
So day turns into night, and you reveal your true nature to complete strangers.
Hoping they’ll be your savior, and your behavior will be praised instead of ridiculed,
when the door closes behind you.
Now you can breathe with ease.
You can now please your tendancies and live freely.
Be a slave, and fall victim to your addictions and release some tension in your bones,
Get in your zone.
Whether your a freak, or a cheat.
Whether you pull up your sleeves and pump your arms full of impurities.
Whatever it is thats your therapy.
Its what keeps you sane in the day and insane at night,
which is your normal state of mind. so to you your just fine.
But never crazy enough to let your real life coincide with the life you leave behind closed doors.
You never let your late nights show on your face and get a glimpse of daylight.
It might not sit well with your circle of friends, co workers, and family
you might accumulate some enemies.
So you make sure you close the door behind you and secure it tightly.
Some people live in glass houses but you live in a cage.
A prisoner of your own shame.
You blame it on the world not accepting who you really are,
But.. who are you really?
You’ve lived this double life and resided on both sides of the thin line for so long,
which one will you leave, which one will you take on?
A decision thats so tough, you must ask yourself…..
Which one brings you joy?
Which one brings you pain?
Which one will you gain the most from?
and Which one is a strain to maintain?
Sometimes bad days can turn into good nights.
Its all depending on how you choose to live life.
Your double life.
Your miserable days and wild nights.
A continuous fight that you cant seem to win so you call it a draw and unwillingly give in.
By the light of the sun you pretend to everyone that this life is the one you love
but my moon light your secretly dipping into the pot of sin, longing to eat from the devils hands again.
So you descend to the pits of hell where you feel that life greets you well so you make deals with the devil.
Your soul, your mind, your body its all up for sale
You dont care if you lose all,
These are the deals you make behind closed doors.
So the secret life you tried to hide removes its disguise.
Now you no longer  have to choose.
Now the life you chose is just life.