As he puts it in he says he wants to be with me
And I believe him, not because I’m gullible
It’s just the look in his eyes pulls me into his words and as we stare into each others I can see his soul,
So as he leans in I can feel him more, he whispers in my hear telling me how much he wanted to be with me.
And I believe him, not because I’m gullible
It just the look in his eyes pulls me into his words, and as I hear his voice I can hear his soul.
So we finish with a passionate kiss and he grabs his belongings and leaves.
Was I asking for too much when I spoke back with my eyes asking him to essentially “be with me”?
Maybe at that moment that’s what he was considering being with me and
Maybe at this moment he’s being with someone else pouring out those same lies from his soul.
And it’s been 4 months
4 months since I’ve seen him
4 months since he called my phone
4 months since I heard his soul
And for 4 months I’ve been dying to see the look on his face when I tell him that he’ll be a father.
4 months ago I should have never opened my door
4 months ago I should have answered my phone
4 months ago I should have asked him to define his words
Define what it means to be with someone because apparently my definition is different from his…
Because being with someone means being on the same page in order to connect spiritually, mentally, poetically, verbally, physically not just sexually.
And Due to the fact that we connected sexually 1st, disconnected us from everything else…
And it’s been 4 months, and 4 months ago before I stared into his eyes
And 4 months ago when I seen his soul, we should stand face to face at an alter
allowing him identify his words by saying, “I do”.