Thought rushing

Tears falling

Feelings flowing

Everythings running 

nothings slowing

I want to run away 

but part of me wants to stay

How did things get so wrong

that i had to write this song

im falling apart

getting caught in all art

I’m losing my mind

And its so hard to find

I’m ripping 

and I’m tripping

I’m just so high 

Its not a fucking lie

I want to go home

But I’m all alone

So no one will be waiting

People that hear this try debating

But it’s a losing battle 

I’m not a fucking coward 

I will tell you things you dont dream about

I will tell you things that will make you shout

Might even scream

I’m not trying to be mean

My life is a walking nightmare 

I dont care if its fare 

I just wish they all wouldn’t write me off

Was it my fault I was born

No but its my fault I’m torn

Between two different life’s

One where no one meets my eyes

So at night I cry

One where im appreciated

Never hated

But its all lies

And at night I still cry

Because I cant be myself

I would have to leave so much of me out

How am I supposed to chose

When either way I fucking lose