It feels as though something is missing.

Recently I have been so out of touch
The things that used to matter, don’t matter as much
I’ve sat, staring at blank pages just waiting for the inspiration to spark
But I found myself just staring at the page until the world goes dark

It feels as though something is missing
something has disappeared from my life
I wish that I could find it; someway, somehow
But where to start looking is what I do not know

Most of the time I just feel empty,
Like there is nothing on the inside
Just a black pit of darkness
Where the demons like to hide

Do I feel psychotic?
No.  That’s not really it.
But day by day I seem to get worse
awaiting that final ride in a hearse
Anxiety, depression, obsession.

Three words that define what I have become;
it’s not that I like these diagnoses
but they are all I have to hold on

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Comments (10)
  • Christine Ramsay on Feb 28, 2009

    What a heart rending poem. I do hope you feel better soon.

    Christine

  • macon on Feb 28, 2009

    i can feel the emotion in your poem. i sometimes feel this way too. all i can say is relax and breathe! good work.

  • Peter Cimino on Feb 28, 2009

    It’s times like these when you cannot give up or give in! Well done. We’ve all been there.

  • Will Gray on Feb 28, 2009

    Very good write and so emotional. Never give up!!!!!!!!

  • coker on Feb 28, 2009

    dark days…what would we be without em…thanks…i really connected with that…

  • livemike on Mar 1, 2009

    I know that feeling oh so well and writing it down releaves that pain..So keep writing it down..You have lots to say..let it all out because once its written down it will never be the same again..

  • Kate Smedley on Mar 2, 2009

    So sad, so full of emotion, I truly hope you feel better very soon.

  • LadyEvyl on Mar 2, 2009

    I write dark stuff myself. Its not always that the writer is going thru said darkness themselves, but rather that the element OF darkness is appealing to the Muse. I liked the bleak feel of this poem, very subtle, building as the pen flows.

    I shall keep an eye out for your work, a fellow lover of the darkness is always a joy to find.

  • S A JOHNSON on Mar 11, 2009

    Great work!

  • Kinkyvinyl on Apr 1, 2009

    I completely empathise with your feelings having looked after young girls with mental health issues. I do love the fact that you’re writing about these issues though, something I wish the girls I’d cared for had done. Keep up the good work, I’ve enjoyed reading your work, even if it is on the dark side. :o D

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