Days are now up and down
Like wearing Jesus’ thorned crown
Joyous times are sometimes near
Some days feeling hell is here

Sleepless nights consume my life
Why can’t we get this right
Confusion we have of what to take
Some days I feel so much a fake

Vision through bloodshot eyes
These drugs are filled with lies
Chemically dependent I’ve become
These meds make my mind run

A doubt of myself each day
Seems Satan likes to play
Tricks he throws at us all
Hoping for a deadly fall

Some days I’m strong to fight
To get myself back to the light
On days that I feel too weak
God lands me back on my feet

What will be the judgement for me
Praying for a happy eternity
I seek for Holy strength through the days
Fighting against Satan’s evil ways

A Prayer I say to give me might
Help me Lord, do what’s right
Change this twisted sickness in me
Make me the man you want me to be