WELL I HAD AN SPIRUTUAL AWAKENING A LONG TIME AGO AND SINCE THEN I HAVE SEEN MANY THINGS AND HELPED MANY THINGS I BELIEVE BUT NOW SOMETIMES I WISH COULD HAVE STAYED ASLEEP AND ENSLAVED TO BLINDNESS I HAVE SEEN TO MUCH AND FELT TO MUCH AND SENSED TO MUCH AND IT FUCKING HURTS AND I AM ALL FUCKED UP BECAUSE OF IT SOMETIMES IT IS GOOD THOUGH BUT SOMETIMES IT REALLY SUCKS SO I DONT KNOW IT KINDA YIN AND YANG I AM JUST SAYING SOMETIMES I THINK IT WOULD FEEL BETTER TO BE SLEEPING INSTEAD OF BEING SO AWAKE BUT SOMETIMES THE AWAKENING HAS BEEN A BLESSING BUT ALOT OF TIME ESPECIALLY AS OF HERE LATE AND THE MORE I AM AWAKENED IT JUS KEEPS GETTING MORE SCARY THERE IS ALOT OF KNOWLEDGE THERE IS ALOT OF TORMENT I JUST DO NOT KNOW ANYMORE SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH OH WELL MAYBE ONE DAY I WILL GET SOME TRUE REST WHATEVER THAT IS