I hurt myself

   to forget you

I despaired in my being

   to erase your memory

I sat in the darkest corners of my soul

    and watched the shadows

       of light flit carelessly through

          the holes

I buried my emotions

   to forget the pain

I sank to the depths of despair

    to erase the shame

        the shame of loving

           loving in silence

I cradled my heart

   its cracks protecting

               preventing the sheer fall

        from hand to floor

I shackled my tears

                              and ceased to exist

   while fighting to restore my ground

I gave myself

    to feel again

and lost myself instead.

I shut down my emotions

      on the ride to destruction

and awoke to the danger in sight

I inhaled

          exhaled

    blinked

           twice

and stepped off the one way track to hell

…

…

…

I bear the scars

      that tell the tale

I hold the memories

                             that soon will fade…

by Tarin Glenn-Brown

(c) 2007