Confusion

I’m alone, I’m weak, I’m scared

I know deep down no one really cares

My lips they wobble, my hands they shake

I’m being scraped away by a rake.

My eyes they cry

Everything I do goes wrong but the question is why?

Why do I try? Why do I fail? Why do I end up feeling so weak and pale?

Why the piercing comments and why the same made up tale?

I’m cold, you’re empty

Why am I here? I say “God sent me”

I’m so confused about the past

But I know it won’t last.

If I could  I would stay awake all night

So I could try and think have I done one thing right

I wish I was normal

I wish my life was normal.

But there is no such thing as normal

I end up speechless

I don’t know what else to say.