When I wake up I want to fall right back to sleep;
It’s a pain from deep within-so deep I have to force myself to eat.
It’s a chore just getting out of the bed;
Most mornings I just wish that I were dead.
My desires, motivation in life, and self worth is all gone;
The majority of the time I feel as if I cannot carry on.
At one time I had the strength to fight the demons from within;
But now I’m so weak, my own strength I cannot depend.
My family and friends hate seeing me wither away;
They come over to encourage and pray for me, but I have nothing to say.
I used to be the person that everyone wanted to be around;
That person has been lost and has yet to be found.
No longer do I have hope that I can overcome this feeling;
My soul is lost and is no longer even willing.
Oh God take this away from me…do you hear my cry?
Those were my last words as I laid down to die.
All of a sudden I saw a bright light;
In it I saw the Glory of the Lord-oh what a delightful sight.
He held me in His arms and told me that it was not my time to go;
He told me that He heard my cries and that He loved me so.
He told me that my work on earth has not been done;
I looked up at Him in awe, because I was truly stunned.
He literally touched my heart and said “Go child and be healed;”
I am eternally grateful forever more-for He is now my Rock and my Shield.