as i fall into the ground

screaming out your name

i wonder if this pain

will ever fade from my heart.

if you ever really loved me

why didnt it show?

shouldnt i have have know?

but now its over,

it shouldnt matter to me anymore

but it does,

its always there in the back of my mind

the harder i try to push it away

the harder it hits me when i remeber.

i sit in my room for days on end,

no food, no drink, no sleep.

just wondering, hoping, wishing

it were true