My first time away from home
and I had no idea what to do.
You took my hand and showed me friendship
as if it was precious and new.

You were the first to make me laugh,
the first to make me smile.
You got me to open up;
something I hadn’t done in a while.

You always had a way
of masking how you feel.
It wouldn’t have been this way
if you had just been real.

You didn’t say that you were hurting.
You didn’t say you needed me.
You didn’t say how cruel it was.
You just let it all be.

So now we sit here and wonder;
we sit here, confused.
We wonder why you never told us
how you felt so broken, so used.

If there is one thing I could change,
it would be to go back and say:
“Get that off of your neck;
it doesn’t have to be this way.”

We all are to blame.
No one saw the signs.
But now you’ll forever be
in our hearts and minds.

We’ll laugh and we’ll smile
and go on with our days.
But your memory won’t fade;
we’ll cherish you always.

You’re gone but not forgotten;
you’ve touched so many lives.
I, for one, can say
you were my angel in disguise.