Distraction.
All around me, everywhere.
Calmness; my esperence.
A yearning for complete isolation,
a moment in which to find clarity and direction.
Fuelled by an empty sense of need,
the need to be needed by another though not
just for their own self gratification.
Thoughts run, rush and push their way through my mind.
Distracted even in a state of solace.
Driven by forbidden desire, unrequited adoration.
Distracted by feelings of lust, rejection and fear.
An unlimited source of confusion, regret and wonder.
No place can be found here.
Lost. Everything out of my control.
Decisions no longer mine to make or understand.
Focus is impossible to force.
Distraction upon distraction upon distraction.