This is a letter,
To those of my past
Did you ever stop to think
How long the affects would last?
I’ve known most of you
Since that very first day
Although I don’t remember much
this is what I have to say,

Every word you said
Every sentence you spoke about me
Every little knife
You shoved threw my chest
Echo in my head
Time and time again

All i want to know is why?
Why did you do this to me?
Why’d you have to make,
Living my life,
Such a hard thing to do?

All i wanted was a friend
But instead,
You thought it’d be more fun
To make me wish i were dead.

Did you ever stop to think
How long the affects would last?
I’ve known most of you
Since that very first day
Although I don’t remember much
This is what I have to say,

Did you know i can’t go near monkey bars,
Without hearing each sneer?

I can’t go a day,
Without seeing your face
And remember at least one laugh?

I can’t look too long in a mirror,
Or everything I’d say to myself,
In hopes of changing myself
To make you my friend
Just might come spilling out
As I wait for this hell to end?

I can barely live my life
Like the normal kid
I’ve always wished to be?
Till this day, now fifteen,
Everything you said,
Still have their affect on me

This is a letter,
to those of my past,

Please, just tell me

How much longer will all of this last?!