Thoughts of independence
Was in my mind all life
Dreams of being free
To lead my life as I please
Making my own decisions
Setting up my own routines
Had always been a desire
Yet when freedom was bestowed
Upon me on a silver platter
The stark scary truth dawned
Fact that I did feel scared
Is this really what I want?
Was this what I needed?
Is life as a single parent possible?
Am I doing the right thing?
And most important of all
Am I depriving my children?
Of their right to lead a happy life?
Will they, as they grow up
Hate me? Despise me?
Throw me out of their life?
Or would they understand?
Or accept that I had
No alternative but to do
As I did? That I,
Myself am a victim?