Just a little push

Just a little shove

and I could induce dying.

Just a simple act

to tranquilize this pain

and it would cease all the crying.

Is it a leap of faith

Or have I just gone insane?

Gazing upon the wreck. Staring into the dark of nothingness

Forgive me for giving up and no longer trying.

I don’t need anyone

I just need to feel

But I cannot feel

I cannot explain

I cannot tame

I cannot breathe

I cannot believe

I cannot persevere

I cannot live here

Anymore

You said you wouldn’t let me fall, my voice who sees all beauty.

But you’re pushing me to the floor

walking away

Have you given up?

Have you lost all faith in me?

Why then should I bother to stay?

Please don’t abandon me

cause’ I need you in my mind.

In search of my rising bird

repeatedly shot down by a merciless thief;

Can you please stop hiding?

Just a clear cut pull

just a tear choked scream

and my soul could be flying.

Heavy breathing now

blood rushing through my veins

heart throbbing violently through my chest.

But I’m not afraid to die

just need you to tell me this is right

and I will pull the trigger. 

You said you wouldn’t let me fall, my voice who is all strong.

But you’re pushing me to the floor

walking away

Have you given up?

Have you lost all faith in me?

Why then should I bother to stay?

Please don’t abandon me

Cause’ I need you in my mind.

Don’t you leave me here with her

I need you in my mind

Don’t you leave me here with them

I need you in my mind

Don’t you leave me here with it

I need you in my mind

Don’t you leave me here with this

I need you in my mind

(My voice of reason)

Tease the admirer of desperation laced in camouflaged destruction.

(Help me to see the light)

Hang the keeper of jaws wide open and brace you neck right in.

(Help me to change my mind)

Disturb the silence upon your innocence with greedy snatching claws of the beast.

(Reassure me that it gets better)

I can’t take this anymore.

(Remind me why I hold on)

I can’t fake this anymore.

(Remind me that I’m not forgotten and that I am strong)

All these devices amongst my grasp.

Whispering voices in my ear

hiss, “Do it before my eyes.”

I’ll soon be floating over me I fear.