Searching for my feelings deep inside my heart,
while knowing one day they will just appear.
Realizing why you truly wanted to leave,
for that will always be what I fear.

Reaching out to grab you before you leave,
as I wake from my dream.
Sweat and tears rushing down my face,
once again my life is never as it seems.

Feelings always beginning to change before me,
but knowing you will always have pieces of my heart.
Hoping you have the courtesy to care about me,
but realizing you never did from the start.

Struggling to overcome how I feel,
for everything has been with me for so long.
Waking up only to again see your face inside my dreams,
while I will have a hard time staying strong.

Holding everything inside where it wll forever stay,
because I no longer know how to feel.
Knowing that my feelings will change forever one day,
but our life no longer seems to be real.