time is slowly passing by my eyes, darkness waits for those who die.
a chance to see what they have looked for, all their life……a demon or an angel for everlasting life…
thoughts that just flow because the ways ive lived, the roads ive choose the things ive did……
i want nothing more than a clear state of mind, only you lord can help me, its something i cant find……
im sad because i try so hard to please, my heart is weak , my soul can no longer see…….
could this leave today?never to return, take these sins and let them burn………………………………..
not to be understood by anyone that cant relate to my miserable heart, yes its all mine and i dont know where to start……………………..
i write these words to scare away the demons that stay by my side, only to show them my fear of GOD, they shall see in my eyes…..
its almost scary to hear these thoughts come from my mind, yet writing this is the only peace i can find…………
there are plenty enough here , if i would take the time to let them out everyday, yet something inside a man wants to hold on to all this pain………….
some think that medicine can deliver for every need, i am one to differ this isnt a sickness or a disease………..
a life filled with pain and eyes that hide things very well, but if everyone was honest were all terrified of hell…..
an everlasting life of burning and roaring flames, no more living no more dying only an endless bed of pain……
we all want smiles and laughs but not always the case, life…….the challenge is what we face……..
to go on and say that its not that bad . would be a lie, we cant waste every minute worrying if were gonna die..
jobs, family , money..a few of what makes us all go, death, sickness, and trials the things that make us slow…..
everything that is good is not always good and everything that is bad is not always bad……….