Finding you is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do.

I’ve lost hope in you from time to time,

I’ve cursed at your very existence when I got angry

And didn’t know why you were here.

I’ve broken down into pieces of pie

When I didn’t think you’d make it.

Plenty of times I thought you were going crazy

And needed to be committed to a psychiatric ward.

You’ve always let drama and stress get the best of you,

No wonder you got so sad and depressed.

I thought you were going to do it,

“I thought you were going to kill yourself”

…there I said it! You were on the brink of a suicidal death.

I didn’t know you’d last this long,

I thought you’d be out cold in a grave out back

But then again, you’ve always been determined and strong.

Sometimes I thought I knew you

And you’d always let me down.

You’ve always let others define who you are,

And you’ve punked out more times than you stood up for yourself.

It’s always been tough trying to keep you in one peace.

And it bothered me why you were always so angry at yourself, at me.

Sometimes it was hard to watch you

Fall in and out of consciousness trying to find your place in this world.

I’ve always been there for you

Through thick and thin ice.

Your hands I’ve always held in mines.

I’ve never left your side

Even when you didn’t want me around,

I stuck by your side ‘cause I knew you’d always need me.

No matter how much you kicked and screamed

No matter how many times you told me to go away

And never show my face again.

But this time was different; I knew it was time to go.

At least I needed to be gone long enough for you to remember who you were.

And I’m gad I decided to leave.

You’re my best friend and it was the best thing I could do, for you.

You needed a break; you needed some time to regroup.

I’m so happy I left,

‘Cause you are right where you should be; at home.

You finally seem happy and content;

That’s what I’ve always wanted for you.

By far, losing you is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

If not, I wouldn’t have been able

To find myself.