As i try to grab hold of you

you wash right past me

without a single word

without a single trace

i know i’ve driven down this path before

the familiarity of it all

im intoxicated by the lines the lights

where am i headed

i cant catch up with my own two feet

1000’s of miles ahead

no time for rest cant catch my breath

and i think but im missing my head

a wandering body 

is all thats left

and its dancing swerving 

begging for some rest

but i strive farther

because im not able to accept

defeat of where i was before

im no longer that lonely girl

i dive into the pool on the first go

dipping my toes in wouldn’t satisfy

this hunger ive grown to know

grown to come accustom to

if your disagreeing to these new decisions

than i cannot tell you how sorry i am

because i like where im headed

for once im genuinely satisfied

and without the familiar feeling of guilt

im spoiling myself with freedom

eating every bite of opportunity i can

without tripping im not stumbling

im standing straight up

striding further down a new lane

i merged onto a path of no regret

regret is a word of no meaning

if you could just see my smile

see how happy ive become

without this bud i became a slave to

im stuck on my own priorities

selfish – you could say

feeding my hunger for self satisfaction

im pleased

more than pleased

exuberant! 

and this smile isn’t brought on by a line 

but by what ive built up inside

a light that slowly began to grow

with every step i take i feel it

with every scent i smell it

with every song i hear it

and im not letting this one go.