Getting Back to Me

ashan1614 on Nov 8, 2011

Tags: abundance, Dreams, enjoyment, fruits, identity, labor, Life, living, plans ideas, rebirth, sacrifice, self confidence, staring over, worth

A common problem with wives, mothers and "givers" in general. Sometimes we lose ourselves and lose our way.

I have to start getting back to me

After so many years of trying to be

Everything to everyone else

Never really being true to myself

The bright shiny model of martyrdom

Is this all I was ever meant to become?

Sacrificing all for the needs of another

So I’d be considered a good wife and mother

My identity lost, stolen out of my hands

By other folk’s greedy and selfish demands

In the mirror of my soul I stand, a stranger

Wish I had understood the danger

Of being timid and accommodating

My plans and dreams all kept waiting

The fruits of my labor I should now be reaping

Not sitting alone in the darkness yet weeping

For the woman I’d always hoped to be

I need to be getting back to me

To leave this person whom I can’t recognize

The one staring back with the dimly lit eyes

Looking not at all as I would have conceived

Knowing, as I do, in what she believed

All the wonderful things to which she aspired

Most of which have not yet been acquired

Living life to the fullest, to laugh and to love

Reveling in all the abundance thereof

Sure of herself, realizing her worth

To regain self confidence requires rebirth

Shedding the old and putting on the new

Walking away from the things I’m used to

Those who hung ‘round my neck like a stone

All cast aside, too, striking out on my own

A hard-fought battle I’m sure this will be

But it’s the only way of getting back to me

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Adrn0919 on Nov 8, 2011
Wonderful expressed. I too have know the feeling and the importance of being an individual and not just a mom or wife. Thank you for sharing.
sloanie on Nov 8, 2011
An excellent thoughtful poem with a few home trues.
okkhattak on Nov 8, 2011
Excellent
T. S. Lewis on Nov 8, 2011
The pieces of a woman are the pieces of my heart. Sending some love your way. Stay beautiful despite. Get back to you despite.
LoveDoctor on Nov 8, 2011
And you will. You just have to believe in yourself. It’s never too late to accomplish those dreams regardless of what anyone says. I would start by taking a day off and pampering yourself. Get a manicure, pedicure, a massage, go shopping, treat yourself to lunch or dinner, get a new haircut.
Tiki33 on Nov 9, 2011
I feel you. You must take care of you and enjoy life. Having many titles requires a lot but you must always make time for you and do what you love. Stay happy!
ittech on Nov 9, 2011
thanks
ashan1614 on Nov 9, 2011
Thanks, friends, for your encouragement…. as always.

Andrea
LadyElena on Nov 9, 2011
Very touching to read. Follow your passion in life. I wonder what you like – writing? painting? inspiring? singing? sports? cooking? decorating? Go for it Ashan.

You have given and given but it was not in vain, you will reap the rewards. May your kids bring you so much Joy in life.

((Big Hug))

Elena
L.E.Monist on Nov 9, 2011
excellent
CA Johnson on Nov 9, 2011
I really enjoyed your poem. Being a parent can be a thankless job because you give to your children without expecting anything in return. Doing that means that you usually have to put yourself last. I hope that you do get a chance to think of yourself. I know people who feel as if they do not have lives of their own because they put their families ahead of themselves. Unfortunately, my father is not that type of parent, but my mother is and I do appreciate what she has done for me and I am sure that your children feel that way about you too. Sorry for the long post.
Margaret Boseroy on Nov 9, 2011
A very moving poem. Unfortunately too many women lose themselves to the needs of their loved ones. I hope you find and get back some of what you’ve lost of yourself.
Profit Buzz on Nov 10, 2011
But at the end of the day, you would find it worthwhile.
Val Mills on Nov 11, 2011
In recent years I have been fortunate to be able to find time for myself and feel I now have a deeper appreciation of who I am. Very nicely expressed here.
Elove Poetry on Dec 8, 2011
true…

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