Goodbye Come Before Hello

Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 3, 2011

Tags: absence, African American Poetry, closure, Poetry

The world is turned upside down and the rules although still apply are no longer honored.

It wasn’t that you left

I told you in the beginning that I knew eventually you would

Although I secretly hope I was wrong

However I expected it and yet’

I stepped into the fire

And allowed its flames to singe my conviction

My integrity

And the scarred tissue of my heart

It wasn’t that you lied to me

I knew you were lying when you said most of what you said

Focused instead on what I thought were good intentions

I tolerated the deception

Because it fed my delusion

And fueled the mesh of my foolishness

Which in turn bolstered my ego by way of distractions

I concluded

That as mentioned before that it was; or we were a lark

It wasn’t that you lack the courage to tell me how you felt in words

Emotionally disabled

As a man I know about reading actions

Seeing the motor’s rumble instead of just hearing it

I often latched onto the benign as some sort of well founded sign

Still,

I know you cared about me as a person

I know you loved the person I am and the heart I have

Just not as a man

That is to say

You saw me as a man; just not as your man

And this too was in the long run

Alright

What did bother me was that you didn’t tell me goodbye

And the real reasons why

Before you said hello to him

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Aiyanna on May 3, 2011
Well another one for the wife I see…
Not surprised Goodbye came before hello… After all Hello was first heard of in the 1800’s and popularised by that Alexander Graham Bell.
Hope your three kids are doing fine??
galore on May 3, 2011
interesting read
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 3, 2011
STOP stalking me Anisha/AnnaShanks/Aiyanna/SoulRosa. Your comments are not welcomed, inaccurate, inappropriate and unwarranted.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 3, 2011
Thank you Galore for your comments.
Judy Sheldon on May 3, 2011
Jerry, when you write poetry it is more than words, it is music to the heart. You write so well.

Puzzled, if her comments are not welcome, why not just delete them, or perhaps this is just friendly banter?

Take care and God bless!
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 3, 2011
I have been deleted them as I go along. However she persist and at this point I want her to be held accountable. I have told her to cease in private in an effort to offer respect but now my patience is wearing thin.

I have written Triond about it, written her about it and her response is the same as yours; That I should just delete it. However she shares personal data about me and my family that is completely inappropriate.

This comment and the last few have been benign, but previous ones were malicious and mean. IT MUST STOP!
lian rosa on May 4, 2011
Reading this piece made me feel it is the painful experience in the poem. You surely made your reader feel this one Jerry.
LadyElena on May 4, 2011
Deep words, Jerrry.

Take care of U.
CHIPMUNK on May 4, 2011
Amazing work you have
The Real Poet on May 4, 2011
Brother, your heart is firmly attached to your pen. What brilliance and clarity. I feel you on this A, thing happening with you. Apparently she’s a mental fatal attraction. Pray that GOD will silence her insolence.
Lynn Hollis on May 4, 2011
You are a good poet. I have only recently started reading your work but I have enjoyed all that I have read so far. Keep the poems coming.
Tulan on May 4, 2011
Your poetry is heartfelt and wonderful reading.
LoveDoctor on May 4, 2011
This poem conveys very deep emotions. Very good work.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Thank you Liam for your kind words.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Hey Elena! Thank you for your comments. I appreciate it.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Thanks to Chipmunk
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Real Poet, my brotha from anotha! Thank you my friend. I love that line “my heart is firmly connected to my pen”. That is a humbling compliment. Thank you.
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Lynn, if I tried to stop writing I fear something really bad would happen. I could no longer stop writing then I could stop breathing.

Thank you so much for your comment!
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 4, 2011
Thank you Tulan and also Marlene! Really appreciate your stopping by.
Nikita Phadke on May 5, 2011
Loved reading this poem! Great stuff.
Humperdinky on May 5, 2011
Another beautiful and moving poem, Jerry.

So you have an online stalker, huh?
Jerry Bradford aka Jerry Atrixx on May 5, 2011
Thank you Nikita for commenting.

Humperdinky, thanks to you for commenting as well.

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