Guilty pleasures cross my mind,
while they struggle to hide what I  find.
Hoping to soonfind ou what is now true,
while all I can do is think about you.
 
Wanting to know everything about how you are,
but you will always remain so far.
Crying my tears at night,
for I know it will become another fight.

Guilty pleasures slowly consume my being,
as I cannot force away what I am seeing.
Trying to tell myself I no longer love you,
but I will never figure ou what to do.

Holding on to the teddy bear oh so tight,
but now all I can see is this big bright light.
Letting you tell me all of these lies,
for that is the reason I wanted to die.

Guilty pleasures shown across my wrists,
while there are all these unknown twists.
Taking my last breath that nobody else will hear,
but now my life becomes so very clear.