My eyes felt heavy as lead,
my heart is pulled out and shatter,
are inside a giant gray cloud
and pain can not be alleviated.

Feel and taste the nothingness,
nothing tells me anything
puts the physical knife in the vagina,
and think of what I have achieved.

Have no sense of life more
I only see shades of gray,
sucked from the cigarette, I inhale,
my love life is used up for the prize.