I sit up slowly in my empty bed,

My room and home I miss.

I sit and listen to the screams of silence,

My family’s loud talks I miss.

I look at the gray out the window,

 occasionally stained with white,

The icy cold bothers me no more than, the long absence of true delight.

Oh how I yearn for the warmth I had, the sweltering dust hard to despise.

Those dull days I hated now shine in contrast, the nice days of now that I loath 

I want to be free to see the world,

Oh how have I been so blessed.

Yet I threw it all away and shoved my treasures aside

Thinking that happiness resided elsewhere

 how naive was my young restless mind

Content was not I with the status quo

Eager was I to change the world

My fingerprint, to history I shall leave

And for generations my name shall u read

I had declared to all

Unknowneth to me that many have tried

And failed to accomplish to what I have striven

A creative artist, an intelligent mind, a lonesome scientist whose name would shine

Another crack in my woven dream

I no longer see through it’s distorted screen

Bring back the years I have selfishly severed

All ties to my loved ones that I have fled

Take away the distance that spreads between us

And I promise never will I ever go back

Forgive me my dear ones for being so harsh

For my ambitions blinded me and now I longer laugh

At the notion of home is where your loved ones are

And screw history and the rest of. Earth

For happiness is in the company you keep

And how well and wonderfully treat your peeps

I will be back soon I feel it in my bones

Whether alive and still breathing I dare not know

Until that day, farewell my love 

My thoughts are of you and who you’ve become