I realized something today

There is a lot of shit online

I have tried to find love

All I got was 16 scammers in a row

Sweet talking me and after my soul

I am lonely, alone and tired

I need a good friend I can trust and believe in

No one comes forward but my 82 year old father

My two good female friends

My son and my loyal cat.

I have been told I’m pretty, I’m special

My profile caught their eye

Like no other

I have talked on the phone and realized

I’ve heard that voice before under a different name

I want to cry but I am too tired

I want to hide but I have nowhere to go

I want someone’s arms to hold me

There is nothing but broken promises

Rubbery icon embraces have been withdrawn

I try to save my pocketbook my dignity

This world has grown cold, and mean

My soul aches for something that is long gone

Can’t anyone tell the truth anymore?

Isn’t there true love and truth out there anywhere?

I want to curl up into a ball and retreat into the womb

I want to stop existing in this cruel world

I have sought something and found nothing

Is there no humanity or truth left in this world?

Everyone has an agenda that is self serving

Me I stand alone and I’m tired and oh so weary

Choices to make none of which are easy

Lord above why do so many people deceive me

Do you have anything good for me in my life?

Or am I doomed to a life of loss and despair?

Show me how to get through and where to go to.

I retreat into your folded wings and pray for guidance

I cannot reach out to strangers and parasites again

I’m in my cocoon again and I won’t reach out any more.