The pain is unimaginable, so steady, so mild, yet so deep

Wild dreams that plague before I lay my head to sleep

A penetrating fear unearths when the world is silent

A stationary heart with the will of a migrant

 An echo of nothingness and a void still engulfs my soul

A paralyzing question “should I stay or should I go

Muffled by ‘let’s pretend’ and the mission of cover up

How deep can I bury myself how much shit can I fit on top

Why do I keep finding myself, why can’t I just go away

An ocean of wonders await, but here with you I stay

I know the person I am I know the pain those would feel upon my arrival

I love the one I keep in side she is my strength and the core of my survival

Should I just explain?

How hard I am getting to contain

Trapped in a life that is not my own

It’s becoming harder to hold on