How I feel…

 Like…really? Is there something about me that I can’t see?

Is it that I can’t recognize my own perfection?

What is it that makes me feel like I am nothing?

Why am I offended by those who see me on a greater scale?

Is it because I don’t recognize my own perfection?

Well then tell me how I am perfect…

I just can’t see it

You see I come from a long line of unselfishness

Where my heart is outlined with selflessness…

My Father taught me to consider my life worth nothing to me

My only aim is to finish the race and to complete the task that was given to me

The great task of testifying good news…

And even though I was given this task, and seen prophesy, and understand all mysteries, and have all things, YET I am still nothing…

Even when temptation comes to mind

And all things that are pure are instantly impure

I maintain to suffer long, remain kind, envy not, and most of all display humility…

And with this obedience I do not expect reward

For a good friend told me disappointment is the result of expectations

So now that I know this…all things that I knew before should vanish away

For my old ways should not consume me…

I should remain to think of all things that are pure, lovely, kind, true, and honest

For those old ways were of when I thought and spoke like a child

And now that I have aged all childish things are put away

For now I have acquired wisdom

And what was once hidden I see clearly

But even though I can see clearly

I struggle with friends who choose to be blind

Frustration occurs but I take heed

For some friends will trespass me over and over

But I realized the only resolution is to forgive

Frustration will come naturally

But to remain peaceful and receive award

I must be hopeful and faithful

Even though this is easier said than done

I hide all this to escape how I feel…