I am falling to pieces
I’m continually breaking
I can barely see the light
It’s barely shinning
I let my self say these words
I am sorry they are still hurting
I pushed you down
I will continue falling
I bottled all these things up
Its all shattering

You kept your word
You were always by my side
You spent your time being there
You carried me along this journey for so long
You gave me strength when I was about to fall
You made me shine when everthing else was gray
You built me up and never let me down
You steared me in the right path when nothing else matched
You kept my secrets and upheld my trust
You were my bestfriend and here I ask for forgiveness

For the lies
The pain I have caused you
For the hiding
The truths I never told you
For the past
The I am sorry’s I have never said
For keeping to myself
The things I should have told you
For the misunderstandings
The thing that wasnt ment for you

I know I have lied
I know I have hurt you
I know I hold things back
I know I cant keep doing things this way
I know I dont open up
I know I have issues with trust
I know I try to hide behind these walls I put up
I know I regret everything I have done

But my actions have consumed me
I have let you down
Have taken all my chances for bidden
Unlike a video game I dont get another life
All these feelings that get held back
Cause a flash flood that has consumed me whole
I have let myself push you right out of my life
This may be the last time
But before you go I hope you know
That these words I am about to say are true
That without you I wont be the same
For many years you have been here
And if it is your time to disapear
I will no longer hold you hear
But set you free
As you should be
You are truely a beautiful soul
A blessing in my life and others
You have taught me many things
A world of knowledge is what you hold
It will take me time
Its not something that will happen overnight
But I am willing to push past my issues
If it means you will continue to be in my life
I will put forward a stronger effort
To become a better me
I am not looking for a second chance
Just an oppertunity to prove
That my weakness’s can be tammed
And you will no longer be shammed
I am oh so very sorry
I hope one day you will see
how you helped create me.