Lord i can not breathe,

I can not sleep,

I can not live,

I can not be.

I feel so alone,

in this barren wasteland of my life,

this fortress of cold steel like ice,

this empty space engulfing my soul.

This life that i once enjoyed,

has been swallowed up with the fury of a raging lion,

 now replaced with the desolate aching,

and a loss I have never felt before.

I have found myself staring at the brink of darkness,

and wondered if i shall ever see light,

i have often thought of you in the darkness,

but i can not smile to see your shining face.

God bless me through the days i fear,

through the nights when my nightmares swim about me,

when me heart races to a stop,

be there for me, as she will be.