I dream and I dream

Wasting away the time

I’ve lost words of happiness

and love for him.

It’s all left my mind.

I cry tears not knowing what to do

I feel so empty with only

my boys that bring me joy.

I fell out of love, knowing why.

His words are so harsh

Not only to me, but our children as well.

It brings tears to my eyes

everytime I hear him yell.

His anger has rubbed off onto me.

I use to be so calm and happy.

Now I’m so aggrivated and distant.

I want back my old personality.

I can’t get it back being with him.

I need my own time and space.

Along with some good friends.

A life of my own with my two children.

Nobody to please, but myself and boys.

Nobody to worry about making angry.

No walking on eggshells.

or worrying when the next fights gonna be.

or if he’s going to leave me with nothing

but myself.

But all I do is dream.

Cuz I’ll never leave.

I’m too scared to be alone

in a lonely empty home.