I long to be my true self
Who I used to be
The person I am now is overrun with our history

I used to be so funny
My mind fine-tuned and sharp
They said my smile was sexy
I had eyes soft with a spark

Gradually people started leaving
I was changing day-by-day
Becoming less of that intellectual worth crushing on
Forming into this yeller blindly marching towards an early grave

We agree I made too many sacrifices
Lost my drive so you’d stay afloat
You apologize for your abuse deeply
I wish instead you’d just let me pursue this hope

I have a chance at happiness
With someone stable who dreams my dreams
Looks forward to starting a life with me
Who wants to take care of me it seems

You’d think your remorse could morph into support
That you could share in my peace
You love us both you say daily
Why then do you give us grief?

Four years ago I was so different
I liked myself and the way I was seen
Magically she sees a glimmer of the old me
“Best friend,” can’t you finally just let me be?