I shall not make these tears today

The pain inside, too complete

There is a hollow within

A place of emptiness

And I find myself numb

How I yearn to let this go

To release the wound

But it is not to be

One cannot release the self

Where do I go from here?

There is no running

No hiding

No escaping

This is mine to bear

There will be no bitterness

But I am jaded to the core

A taint of the soul

Lingers on my tongue

In my mind

Under my very skin

I crawl with it

Twitching and screaming

And I huddle inside my body

Wearing it like a shell

The death inside hovers

Nearer to the surface

A shroud of sadness

It permeates my soul

It licks at my heart

My hands shaking

My nerves jumping

I can’t catch my breath

Drowning in my sorrow

I reach for the surface

But I cannot break its hold

This shadow clings to me

But tomorrow I will grieve

For I shall not make these tears today