If I could say the truth

and it would not get me into trouble

I would say I get down sometimes

I would admit that I don’t always think we match

I would say that I am scared to trust you

because I know the hurt you can cause

I would say I am not as strong as you think

and that I all too regularly second guess and pause

I would ask my parents to please take me back

so I could enjoy a happy family life once more

Sometimes I feel like a little girl again

far out of my league and burnt from adulthood

I wish I could tell you all the ways you have hurt me

and just for once have it not result in an argument