Another haunted day reminding me of what once was but now is not.

No matter where I go I still see shades of grey.

My skins cold to the touch but inside blazes a fire oh so hot.

No matter what I do, I never do it the right way.

My head swirls with pessimistic thoughts meant to hold me down.

Slowly draining away the better part of my soul.

Bound hand and foot, I struggle against the very ground.

Sweet bitterness is all that fills the gaping hole.

Oh I never never meant for things to be this way.

All I ever wanted was a loving family and a safe place to stay.

Time keeps ticking along as I sit idly by.

A prisoner to the grey mist of my own design.

Smoke a cigarette as I watch the end of another day.

I reach out to the stars while struggling to keep my mind.

What to do?  Where to go?  What to say?

People say wisdom comes with years,

Although I don’t feel I got my share today.

Just lonely moments filled with pain and tears.

People say I deserve so much better.

Still my days contiue to bring on cloudy weather.