If Only

I feel you here,

You’ve been here all along.

Disguising yourself,

waiting for the perfect moment.

Infection set in,

Injected by the poison you sent.

First up then down.

Me, my life, my town.

Go ahead and smile, it’s okay.

But I feel you within me each day.

Building me up, to be knocked down again.

I am playing a game, I can’t seem to win.

Each time something great makes it’s way inside.

You show yourself, refusing to hide.

Misery and pain, haven’t you brought me enough.

I can’t handle much more, just good at playing tough.

I see her face and I know why I am here.

Although I feel you, death is near.

If I am here one day, then gone the next.

Absorb all my presents, my love’s depth.

For it runs deep,

strong and pure.

If only it was your love, instead of this disease.

I could die knowing there was no cure.