Avoiding is a nice way of putting it

however Id like to call it by its true name,

ignoring. 

Not because of the sweet-hearted reasons

that you yanked out

from your dream boy dictionary. 

No,

those were just flat out excuses

to make yourself feel better

for throwing away

the one thing in your life

that was right

just so that you could do

what every other human being does

and run from their fears. 

Running away only tears you down even worse

and leaves you slowly walking back

the same way you were before

only this time

with one more scar. 

You run yet you hold me on one side of your string

so that at any given moment

if you were to crash and fall

I’d be right there under you

to catch you

and everything would be okay. 

But you will never tie a knot

at the other end because one day

your fears will catch up with you again

and one day

another escape will come along

and not even I

can make you hesitate.