Insanity that’s what is was
As I ride this lonely bus
Sitting silently in the back
A case full of nothings that I packed
As I watch the trees go by
Thoughts go array in my mind
Eyes swollen from shedding useless tears
Wasted days, months, and years
Riding this bus of insanity
Trying to reach my destiny
Passing by unknown streets
Wondering if you’ll miss me
Countless hours rolling by
Last night was my good-bye.
Insanity that’s what it was
Still riding on this lonely bus
Holding on to unsure nights
Letting go of those dreadful fights
Leaving all that I once had
Material things that made me sad
Because they really didn’t belong to me
Belonging to a force unseen
Living in turmoil and selfishness
Hoping next stop will be happiness
Insanity, that’s what it was
As I step off this lonely bus
Now to find a peaceful place
A new existence in the universe.
I will face life without fear
‘Cause this bus has brought me here
I feel the calmness in my soul
An emotion that only I can hold
As I hear the driver say
“It’s your stop, step right this way”
Flowers blooming everywhere
All I did was smile and stare
This is the dream I had envisioned
Nothing that was ever shown on television.
As I stepped off the lonely bus
Didn’t look back…..
But thought to myself, “Insanity that’s what it was”
As the bus drove away
This is where I had to stay
Walked down the avenue of despair
Didn’t have to stop there
Strolled onto memory lane
Passed it “cause I wasn”t the blame
Crossed over and there I found
Faceless people in the crowd
Walking aimlessly I know I must find
That serene place in my mind
Then I looked up and saw a sign that read:
You’ve found happiness at last,
And in the midst of all my thoughts
Not once did I think of home.
Insanity that’s what it was
Thank God I got off the lonely bus.
I took a deep breath, starting over again
No more heartaches or endless pain
No more catering to a man
Who tried to breakdown this woman.
Longing….
Holding…
Wanting….
Caring…
No more giving or sharing
It’s me now, not a dream
Look at me; world I am free!
“Being with someone because you don’t want to start over; comes with consequences. Wanting to free of undesired dreams that clutters your life only makes you a person who yearns to survive. To be happy one must break the chain and become independently secured”
By: Toni Love